My So CAlled LIFE...

2006-12-01T12:52:00.000+08:00

sorry! it's bean a while since i've visited this site and updated my blog! hahaha! sobrang okay na ako! natititiis ko na cya. ndi ko alam kung pano ko nakalimutan ang mga bagay-bagay pero... thank god! mas maganda na rin na ganito kasi nakikita ko na hinid na cya nakasandal sa pader. hay... thanks to...em! sobrang bait nya! maski di ko maipakita sakanya na love ko cya. there are few times na sweet kami pero hanggang ganun na lang kasi ndi tlga pwede ibulgar eh... pero lucky charm nya ako ha. everytime na naghuhug kami may sale cya! hahaha! saya! he's been my inspiration to go to work eversince things became worst kay mab! anyways... im really really happy right now! no regerets! love you em!

UY...Bago...

2006-11-10T04:25:00.000+08:00

Hay... I think medyo ok na ako, ndi ko na cya naiisip. Ndi na ako pathetic pagdating sa kanya... pero may bitterness parin cyempre. Sino ba nman ang makakatanggap ng ganung pangyayari diba... know what i want to do... gusto ko iparealize sa kanya kung anong feeling pag wala ako... BITTER tlga. No joke, ano ba cya pag wala ako... sama ko noh! Yun lang dapat sa kanya, He doesn't know how to appreciate things, and dapat sa mga taong ganun, iniiwan. Imagine, gagawin mo lahat para sa kanya tapos wala lang datin.. Ndi mo malaman kung sadyang manhid lang sya or tlgang ineexpect na nya na gagawin mo yun for him kasi alam nya na may feeling ka para sa kanya! Ang gulo noh, kaya kung ako sa inyo, kung kaya nyong gawing simple ang buhay nyo at kung kaya nyong wag maglulusot sa mga butas dyan... do so... para wlang gulo! Eto pa nagtesti na cya sakin, if you wanna see eto www.friendster.com/dzeyahr yung michael and pangalan. hay... nakakainis, parang nakakakunsensya gawin yung binabalak ko! pero sorry, buo na ang loob ko! hahaha! tawagin nyo na akong BITTER pero gagawin ko tlga! lalo na ngyon, nakahanap na ako ng kapalit! ata may work pa! cute din pero aaminin ko na mas cute parin cya! hahaha! basta, come what may... pagpray nyo nlang ako!

BREAKING FREE

2006-10-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hay... atlast natitiis ko na rin cya! I don't know how pero yun na yung nararamdaman ko eh! siguro dahil na rin sa mga nangyari nitong mga nakaraang araw. Masaya kasi medyo nagiging ok na ako... im getting over him! Malungkot kasi namimiss ko yung mga sweet moments namin!Ü Well I think this is better coz ayoko nang umasa sa wala, might as well forget him rather than bringing this pain forever. may napapasin nga pla ako sa kanya, parang cya ung lumalayo... haha! medyo affected pero pabor sakin. Mas madali kong makakalimutan cya! wala namang mawawala sakin, sakaya lang...! Ang sama ko noh! iba na kasi yung nararamdaman ko para sakanya... its just pure concern... wala nang affection! Kawawa nman ung tao kung bigla nman ako magbabago diba... and besides, kapatid ang turing nya sakin! bsta... come what may! ayoiko magdrama ngyon! next time na lang! tutal wala nman akong dapat ipag drama!Ü byers!

PSST.... HELLO ULIT

2006-10-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

Hay... daming nangyari sakin na sobrang pangit ha... sobrang nakakadepressed! First of all... nagkasakit ako! I'm still not feeling well, pero kelangan nang pumasok. Tapos eto na... eto na... eto nah... waahhhh... doo bi doo bi doo... joke! Nagusap na kami tungkol saming dalawa. sobrang nakakapang lambot yung sinabi nya. Ndi ko aklam kung dapat ba akong matuwa o hindi. Pero iniisip ko nalang na nakakatuwa... kesa naman mabaliw ako diba?!?
nakainom kasi ako nung time na yun, tapos nagkita kami sa house nga nila raquel, tapos ayun... nagusap na kami. thrpugh cellphone pa nga kasi sobrang nahihiya ako... walang boses na lumalabas and wala tlga akong boses nung time na yun dahil may sakit-sakitan ng ako! sabi ko... ndi ko na kaya na lagi nalang ganito, sabi ko mahal ko na tlga cya! lamo sabi nya... "sabi ko na nga ba cute ako eh!" kasi the night before nun kinukulit nya ako na cute daw cya...kapal noh! anyways sabi ko naman seryoso na... here's what he said... "lam mo, iba na rin yung nararamdaman ko for you, ndi na tulad nang dati, mas nagmature na... KAPTID NAH" *FCUK*... gusto ko mahulog sa hagdanan nung sinabi nya yun... parang biglang natunaw yung tuhod ko! BAD TRIP tlga! ganun lang yun. alam kong nagaaral cya ng pagtheological studies kaya mahirap tlga, pero after lahat ng sweet moments, kapatid lang? GRRR! kasi panganay cya, so first time lang daw na may taong nagiisip saknya, lagi na lang daw kasi cya ang nagiisip sa family nya ka, at ako yun... ano ko, lola?! tapos eto ba "ayoko mawala at masira ang kung ano man ang meron satin ngayon, and please understand the fact na ndi pwede maging tayo!" badtrip tlga! hirap mangarir nag magpapastor! pero know whats in my mind after he said that, mas maganda na nga ng ganito na lang, pero hindi ako papayag! gusto kong gumanti! gusto kong lumayo sa kany and iparealize kung anong feeling ng wala ako! kasi all this time lagi na lang ako naka support sa kanya, gusto kong marealize na kung anong mawawala sa knya! BITTERNESS! he left me hanging on the air alone! bakit pa cya nagbitaw ng mga ganung salita before kung ganun lang pla. Yun ba ang tinatawag na bola?! ang sakit pala noh! Gusto kong humanap ng taong mapagbabalinan ko ng atensyon tapos gusto kong ipakita sa kanya para mag selos cya! I admit, sobrang BITTER tlga ako. Pero ok naman kami, nagpapasinan parin parang dati! hay hirap!

Lessons that I've learned:
-never let an opportunity pass, tignana mo ako... pwede na dati pinalagpas ko pa
-never give double meanings... kala mo may gusto na cya syo kaya nya ginagawayun pala
normal lang sa kanya yun.
-don't exaggerate...
-and last, WAG KANG MAI-IN LOVE sa taong alam mong wala nmang patutunguhan...
lalo na sa magpapastor! hahaha!Ü

I'm ok now! masay na ulit! Babae ulit! hahaha!
Update ko na lang pag nagbago isip nya... hoping parin... haha!
Malay mo, effective ang pagpapaselos ko sa kanya! hahaha... HOPING tlga!
bye!

UPDATE THIS WEEKEND

2006-10-17T04:39:00.000+08:00

Hay... sobrang saya ng weekend ko. As in parang kami na... or kami na ba talga?!? He's so sweet! my God! enumerate ko ulit ha...

Friday night... tabi kami natulog pero naka elevate iya kasi sa mga upuan cya natulog....
Buong saturday kami magkasama... naghiwalay lang ata kami nung maliligo na siya
Naiwan niya ung mga singsing ko sa cr nila... super effort soya umuwi para kunin pa un... as in super run siya...
ayaw nya talaga akong pagyosihin
Iba na yung mga tingin nya... as in... mararamdaman mo naman yun diba...Ü haha!
Saturday night, as in tabi na tlga kami matulog... nakakaloka... laging nakadantay sakin... tapos pagigsing ko nakayakap na pala ako. Nakita tuloy kami ni jerry and jayson.
kain kami ng lunch ng sabay.
ice skating kami kasam nila tan, ate kelly, mish, jerry and syempre ung bday girl Louisa...
pag magkakasalubong kami, super hawak siya, eh syempre mabilis... napapayakap cya... pati ako.
Cya yung nagwoworry sakin kung may pera pa ako
Usap kami ng seryoso yung sunday night... kaso nga lang about ka lovely... medyo selos ako pero ok lang... atleast nagoopen cya sakin ng mga ganung bagay.
monday night... nagkita kami sa 93... dota kaming 2
after magdota inoffer nya ihatid nya ako... syempre hinatid nya ako... grabe sweet no!

Dami pang mga events yung nga lang nakalimutan ko na sa sobrang dami...Ü
pero eto ang issue... ambisyosa yang JEM na yan... ginawan ba naman kami ng issue na kami na daw... NAKAKALOKA... masyado naman nsiyang nangunguna!Hindi pa nga kami, malapit pa lang... hahaha! Bad trip tlga ako kasi baka lumayo siya dahil dyan sa JEM na ayn!
Cge... work muna ako! PERO MAHAL NA MAHAL KO NA TLGA CYA!

Michael Angelo Robles

2006-10-11T06:17:00.000+08:00

For you I'd make the world turn,
For you my heart will always yearn.
For you I'd give my life at will,
For, you are the one who makes my heart stand still.

Without you, my life is dull,
Your smile warms my deepest soul.
Your laugh is like a thousand bells,
And when you laugh... my heart doth swell.

For every wave that finds the shore,
My heart loves you a thousand times more.
For every bird that sings it's song,
My love for you grows deep and strong.

Always and forever, I'll love you till I die,
And to you, my darling, I cannot lie.
For you, my heart, I'll always endeavor
To love you now, always... and forever.

It's not working out!

2006-10-10T06:34:00.000+08:00

Huh... If yo read my previous blog, I'm talking about fixing up my heart. But you know what... I can't even try to remove MAR on my mind. He keeps on doing sweet things for me.... both small and big. I don't know if I should tell him what I feel para lumayo na siya and magka-gap kame. Pero mali naman ata yun and it would be very difficult for me. I'm not hoping na pwedeng maging kame pero what if sinabi ko nga sa kanya tapos ok lang sa kanya, eh di mas grabe pa nangyari diba?!? I'm getting paranoid about him. I don't know whats on his mind! Kung sadyang ganun lang ba tlga siya or may something tlga. Pero know what, I get jealous everytime he's near with someone. AAHHH! Help me GOD, please! You put me in this situation kasi alam kong may gusto kang matutuan ako! At kung ano man yun, eh hnidi ko maalam. Is it because gusto mo malaman ko na wala akong matatamo sa mga bagay na related dito or Your putting me on a test. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH NA! And a day won't pass without me dreaming about him. Please, tulangan niyo po akong tanggalin tong ka-abnormalan na toh! PLEASE!!!

*** Sabi nga pala nya na pag nawala na daw yung girl na nagbigya ng necklace nya, sakin na daw ung necklace... bakit?! haha! mahilig kasi magbigay ng doubke meaning ka nauuwi sa pagka-bigo eh!!!Ü ***

FIXIN' ÜP

2006-10-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

Here we go again... I don't wanna sound so cliche anymore! Here's something new, I'm on the process of fixing my heart and mind with MAB. I don't wanna be left behind that's why I'm doing this. I know that we can never go further, this is it and I might as well be happy with what we have. I don't wanna ruin any part of his life and so as mine...so be it! I hate being a martyr ang I hate expecting nothing. So bare with me guys if I might be moody at times. It's because I'm on the process of chagIng my point of veiw and my attitude towards love. I'm not afraid loving someone it's such that I always end up alone. Thanks!!!

WEEKEND SPECIAL!Ü

2006-10-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

Well, I must say na this is one of the best weekend. Although may mga nakaka-bad trip na oras pero okay lang... Masaya parin cya.! Kwento ko kung bakit ha...

Sobrang may something na samin ni MAB (codename). Kung makikita nyo lang tlga ang mga pangyayari especially this weekend. He's too concerened about me.
Dapat hahabol pa ako pumasok nung saturday ng madilng araw maski wala pang tulog pero ndi na nya ako pinapasok kasi wla daw akong tulog tpos anong oras na daw. eto pa... nakahiga kami sa sofa tabi kme pero magkabaliktad. Basta ang sweet namin ng friday night.
Saturday morning ok lang... Palarong pinoy nun. paggising nya sumandal sya sakin
Tpos nung hapon na ang saya... nakatulog kami ng tabi... sa sofa ako sa sahig sya. Tpos as in magkadikit na ata kami. Nakakloka! nahawakan ko ung kamay nya, ndi ko naman sinasadya kasi nahulog ung kamay ko, wala nmang akong malay noh. nagulat nlang ako magkadikit na kamay namin. HMPHF... Ü
Tapos nung hapon nilinisan ko ba naman ng kuko. Ambisyosa ha. Pero ok lang... ang kulit nga eh nung nasa kamay na ako, humawak ba nman ng mahigpit sa hita ko... haha! KILIG! Joke... OA naman ako diba.
Satuday night BADTRIP. Nagpunta sa bday ng friend nya kasama mga barkada nya tpos sabi nya wait ko daw cya ng mga 9:30 kasi hanggang 9 lang daw cya. tpos 1am na dumating. Sumunod sa stage 2. Ndi ko nga cya pinasin. Pero pusong babae lang... ndi rin nakatiis, pinansin ko rin cya pero medyo ilag ako! Tapos nakita ko pa si jakcy... mas nabad trip ako. Sabi ni ate kelly hinahanap daw ako... pwede ba!!! Tapos he keeps on mentioning the name of the girl na crush cya. GRRRRRRR...!!! :s
Tpos Sunday morning...nagservice pero wala cya... nakakhya ah nagpunta ako sa harap. tpos kain kami kasama si carlito tpos punta ng mega mall. saya... play time si ate kelly lagi kaming pinagtatabi. nakakaloka!
Saya nung gabi... walang mawithdrawhan. ikot kami ng rosario tapos ortigas ending sa medical city ako nakapagwithdraw. kain sa ortigas kasma c mish tpos laro sa stage 2. kawawa naman c hamish galit ung tatay kasi gabi na daw! tpos ayun laro to the max tapos uwi na!!

BASTA NAKAKA LUNGKOT PARIN UNG SITUATION NAMIN KASI NDI NAMIN MAAMIN SA SARILI NAMIN NA MERON, HINDI LANG TALGA PWEDE! BAD TRIP! PERO MASAY NA AKO NG GANITO PARA WALA NANG MASAKTAN AT MAHIRAPAN! CLICHE!
TILL NEXT TIME...

WATCH THESE VIDEOS!!! I can really relate to this...haay...

2006-09-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

Now this really frustrates me to go to Korea. I really Love this boy band, TVXQ! I can't belive that they will make a story that goes on like this, i mean that will go on like my love life. Adding the fact that they are really cute, especially U-know! Hay, magpapayaman talaga ako para ma-meet sila.

Tears 4 Fears

2006-09-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hay, bakit ganon ang mga nangyayari ngyon? After ko maka pag move-on here comes another reason for me to be down with love. Same old reason, hindi pwede... But you know what, I opened this issue about homosexuality with our pastor. Know what he said... the only thing that he hates about this is the sex issue. Of course I'm not stupid not to know that it's a really bad thing. But what made him think is that when I asked him if falling in love with the same sex is bad. He told me the common answer "just know your limitations". Anyways, mas mahirap pa ang situation ko ngayon guess why... he's taking up theological studies para maging pastor! Stupid ko diba... mafofall na lang ako sa sobrang wrong person pa. Pero la ako magagawa eh, that's love! Pero masaya na ako kung nasan na kami ngyon... I can't say na mutual understanding pero parang ganun. As in, kung saksi lang kyo sa mga nangyayari ngayon. Tama na siguro yun, eto na ung binigay ni lord eh, might as well be satisfied with it! Sabi nga ni Kris Aquino sa Deal or No Deal, it's good to aim for high amounts to be yours but being greedy is bad (I really love Kris Aquino!!!). At feeling ko rin hanggang dito lang ang pwedeng abutin nito kahit anong pilit ko pa. Wahh... SAD diba! Sige work muna ako... baka pati trabaho ko mawala, haha!

2006-09-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

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THE REASON OF MY SIGHS...

2006-09-23T04:05:00.000+08:00

PROMOTIONAL NEEDS

2006-09-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

Haha! I can't even imagine that this young age I'm gonna be a Quality Assurance Officer of our Account. Well... iba na magaling! Joke!!! Sobrang blessing in disguise yung nangyari sakin before sa previous account ko. I really can't blame my manager for kicking my butt out of GOTALK kasi nga nman sobrang kulit ko before. But because of that account, I learned hard selling that made DISH easy for me. DISH is not easy, it's such that GOTALK is harder. I wanna thank all of my co-agents for helping me out all throughout my agent days. And of course my 2 sups, EDZEL and DINA! Thank you guys for trusting me and putting me in this job. Of course, I wanna thank the Lord for give me so many blessings! Nga pla, Birthday ko nung 10, wala lang... Nothing special happend! Pero okay lang... kung ganito ba lagi mangyayari eh... hahaha!!! Bye... have so many work to do!!! (NAKS... Busy-busy-han)

The DISH Inbound Team

2006-08-29T04:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so lucky to be part of them...!Ü

Always and Forever

2006-08-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

You are a part of my life in so many ways
And you I will love for the rest of my days
Time can’t change the way I feel
For I love you now
And I always will.
It seems like forever since we’ve been apart
I wish we could go back
and make a fresh start
Then if you left
I’d miss you I know
But tell you I love you
and then let you go
But the past is over
I cant change it now
I want to be with you
but I just don’t know how
So I’ll think of you always and the way it use to be
Because you are so very special to me

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2006-08-24T05:02:00.000+08:00

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Know what... Tell him your problems and heartaches... He surely has the answer to it...!

Do rules apply in everything... even on LOVE?

2006-08-22T06:35:00.000+08:00

It's so hard to love someone who doesn't love you back, right? But it's more painful to love someone who loves you but you're not allowed to be together. In my case, I'm not allowed to love that person, not even show my care... It's so sad on my part 'coz the reason is not about me or anything to that extent. It's because of other people who's not just ordinary for me but people who are so much important to me(not my parents or any of my relatives, ayt...). I'm so tired living on a world where everybody cares for you, to the extent that even you personal life would be affected. Let's say they just want to make me a better person but not making me live in a dimension which is not my world. How am I suppose to know the hardships of life and learn from it if they will just keep on nagging me with their thoughts. Of course, I thank them for what they do to me... I know that they are just concerned but I wanna finish my life with accomplishments from my own decisions and thinking.

I still love that person but I have to choose... So you know who you are... haha!!!

2006-08-22T04:29:00.000+08:00

Bright Sunny Day

2006-08-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

These past few days, rain has been pouring hard all over the philippines. But guess what, at my world... the sun has been shining so bright. Everything seems to be where it should be!!! (Knock on the wood... haha!) Friends, work, family... everything jives in the flow of my life. And of course I thank God for this. Also I wanna thank all those people behind this success... My RCF Family (Rosario Christian Fellowship). They made me realize that life is not a matter of making big things for yourself, its about making small or big things for others. And because of that, my point of view towards life changed. Before I was a happy-go-lucky type of person. I'm contented with whatever comes to my life. But when I met these people, I learned to set goals for me and aim high. I owe them my courage and my conviction. THANK YOU!!!
I just hope they know how I value them and I hope one of them could read this...
LOVE YOU GUYS...